Reflecting on Jesus’s Last Words

    This Friday we gathered to reflect on Jesus’s last words before he died on the cross. I always find it funny that we call this day ” Good Friday”, how is it a good day? like hello… Jesus dies! ha. But we know it doesn’t end with him dying. So many things happen as he hung on the cross and He had a few words to say. Our church always honors His last words by having people reflect on his seven final words. I presented a piece from His forth saying “My God, My God, why have you forsaken?” Those words express abandonment, a feeling I have felt way too many times by God. This saying comforts me because it reminds me that Jesus knows what it means to feel forsaken and it also reminds me that God abandoned Jesus on the cross for that moment, just so that I would never feel forsaken by Him.

Many theologians say that when Jesus cries out the words My God, My God, why have you forsaken?” it is in that very moment that all of the sin of the world and wrath meant for us came upon Him, which means that at that moment He was separated from God. How crazy is that? God abandon His holy and perfect son for imperfect and unholy people like you and I. In Jesus being forsaken, We are accepted. I pray you may know that God is inviting you into his mercy and love. He is calling for you.

Here is my reflection:

Mark 15:33-34

And when the sixth hour had come, there was darkness over the whole land until the ninth hour. And at the ninth hour, Jesus cried with a loud voice, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

(God was silent)

That is the cry of my life.

At the footsteps of my home where I patiently waited for my father but he wouldn’t show. “ My God, my God, Why have you forsaken me?”

But He answered me.

It is in the memories of that touch underneath my garment as a young girl that my heart cries “My God, my God, Why have you forsaken me?”

But He answers me.

It was at the end of my broken relationship that I cried “ My God, my God, Why have you forsaken me?”

But He answered me.

It was in the hardest moments of my marriage that I’ve cried “ My God, my God, Why have you forsaken me?”

But He answered me.

It was in the complicated circumstances of my son’s birth that I cried “ My God, my God, Why have you forsaken me?”

But He answered me.

It is in my anxiety and depression that I cry “ My God, my God, Why have you forsaken me?”

But He answers me.

For God’s silence towards His holy Son was so that I may never feel forsaken by Him.

His cry leads to my acceptance.


A Life of Joy

IMG_9055 Well, I made it to twenty-eight.

   It’s been such a wonderful and hard year. Last Sunday, my pastor spoke about what it means to have joy as a Christian and how very often we can struggle to be Christians that seek joy in dry and suffering seasons. Do have a hard time seeing God’s goodness during those times? I know I do.

    At the end of his sermon he challenged us to write down ways God has blessed us, which prayers He’s answered and how has He brought us out of the whatever pit we were in. God has so willingly loved and out poured his mercy over my life. How can a God so big spend His time thinking of me? How is it that in times of suffering I turn away from Him and He seeks me out? God doesn’t owe us anything. He choses to give us things we don’t deserve out of mercy and love.

So for this 28th year of life, I want to remember all the ways that he has been faithful despite the struggles. I challenge you to do the same. Sometimes it’s so easy to forget God’s faithfulness when you don’t get our way or when a storm hits us.

  • His mercy and love in saving me.
  • Providing me with a husband that sharpens me and sacrifices for our family.
  • Giving me the ability to have life.
  • Healing Calvin and growing him beautifully.
  • Helping me through my anxiety and growing back my hair.
  • Making a way for me to attend grad school again.
  • Providing people in my life to care and love my family.
  • Putting me in uncomfortable positions.
  • Listening to my prayer about work and giving me the title I’ve wanted for so long.
  • Making a way for us to get the apartment we’ve been looking at for the last three years.
  • Allowing me to encourage mothers through my blog.
  • Opening opportunities to work with brands.
  • Giving me a side job to make extra money.
  • Giving Ruben commission opportunities through his art.
  • Providing Calvin to attend an affordable daycare and very close to home. ( Across the street)
  • Drawing my younger brother from my dad’s side to become closer to us and accept Jesus. hallelujah!
  • Giving me the time to invest in youth and see Him transform their lives.
  • Being able to be financially well despite our struggles.
  • Giving me strength when I have none during motherhood.
  • For a successful first semester in Grad School.
  • For new friends.

 

I am beyond grateful for these blessings and answered prayers, I hope to remember them in this new year of life. What are some prayers you’ve seen God work in your life? Write them down, praise Him, and remember them when you feel nothing to be joyful about.

love, 

Transparent city mama